Its no secret I have been thru some stuff in my life. I look around at other people and sometimes see they have a much easier road to travel.
But no, not for me.
Recently, after a long series of loss and grief, of friends, family & loved ones, I decided to make some changes in my life, for the better. Because I have an issue with lasting love. And it’s something I truly want for myself.
I find it to be interesting what human beings do when they are in love. Either cultivate it or destroy it. I must admit I’ve done it both ways.
But love is the one thing Ive been looking for my entire life. Just love. Nothing else. To love someone and to be loved in return is the ultimate gift in this life.
No doubt, I’ve fallen in love quite a few times and then lost it more times than I have wanted. But thru it all I’ve learned the valuable lesson of impermanence.
Nothing is forever. Enjoy the moment. Be here now. Savor it and make it last.
I lost my best friend recently who just happened to be someone I was madly in love with.
Afterwards, I didn’t tell anyone except someone I trust with my life, that I needed help.
It was so painful at times I couldn’t breathe.
It was the final straw for me.
I needed help with my heart, my attitude and my feelings about love. How to heal from all of the disappointment I’ve endured. How to return to my center, my true desires, to have faith, and then learn to love again freely, without expectation but full intention to make it last.
My friend & I came up with a game plan. And I am working it fast and furious.
Because love is all there is.
Mine is still out there.
And I want my share.